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091109 i love this date to e max :D
first date w babylimzisheng(:
i love himvmuchmuch(:
thanks God i got him(:
<33s





Drop to normal academic due to my lazyness.
i played throughout this whole year, yes i wasted this year doing nothing.
thats what i get. like fuck sia. nxt yr peoples take O i take N ..
what if N fail? then ite lehs..
don't know luhs, feels soso dumb now.
waste one more year :s
no mood la.


Shattered hearts again. I don't know how to save it. Feeings died. I'm numb to everything.
I'm sick and tired everything. lies and liars. fuck off from me.

I couldn't count how many pieces of shattered heart if you leave me.

don't go away, don't leave my heart.

i fear of losing you, seriously.
i can't sleep without yr calls, yr msgs.
you don't knw how much you're imprt to me now.
you're important to me.
you're.


独家记忆


喜欢一个人 看下大雨

没联络 孤单就像连锁反应


想要快乐都没力气


雷雨世界像场灾难电影


让现在的我可怜到底


对不起 谁也没有时光机器


已经结束的 没有商量的余地


我希望你 是我独家的记忆


摆在心底 不管别人说的多么难听


现在我拥有的事情


是你 是给我一半的爱情


我喜欢你 是我独家的记忆


谁也不行 从我这个身体中拿走你


在我感情的封锁区


有关于你 绝口不提 没问题


雷雨世界像场灾难电影


让现在的我可怜到底


对不起 谁也没有时光机器


已经结束的 没有商量的余地


我希望你 是我独家的记忆


摆在心底 不管别人说的多么难听


现在我拥有的事情


是你 是给我一半的爱情


我喜欢你 是我独家的记忆


谁也不行 从我这个身体中拿走你


在我感情的封锁区


有关于你 绝口不提 没关系


我喜欢你 是我独家的记忆


摆在心底 不管别人说的多么难听


现在我拥有的事情


是你 是给我一半的爱情


我喜欢你 是我独家的记忆


谁也不行 从我这个身体中拿走你


在我感情的封锁区


有关于你 绝口不提 没限期


I FEEL MY LIFE IS DAMN


FKUP NOW.


JustFkOffFromMe.


INeedSlience.


INeedToBeAlone.


Tyvm.


i dreamed about something funny ytd night. i dreamed that one teacher give me one durian mookcake and i was like overjoyed luhs.
and later i realised that mooncake for what? i thought mooncake festival over already?
then i throw into rubbish bin..
In reality, i hate mooncakes!
I know that was a silly dream >.<

today ==> result processing day): (shit!)
tmr gg to marina barrage for humanities field trip w class.
haha:/ i think that's the last chance going out with 3e4..
cos who knows.. you know.. i will drop to na...
alamak. i don't want things to change.
i feels like punching, hitting, kickin something now.
i just feels like screaming, hitting everything that's at my sight now.



I fkin hate my results.

fk off from me man.

all bullshit la.


I'm so so so sad.


don't want go school :p bleah.
i fkin don't wan receive my result.
i know this cfm drop na le.

I'M SICK LARH. 39DEGREES-.-!


Lazzy to post (:


Wow. long time no post le.
okay basically exams are finally over.  CLAPS*
but overall i think i did quite badly.
i don't wan drop to na ):
i don't even want to receive my result on tue.


Friday
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After e last paper, brought some eye masks and went home sleep as i'm super tired.
wake up > dinner > online > sleep again.
super tired after exams. pheeeeeww.

Saturday
---------
Meetups with christy , shopping , church , meeting with leong .
& Happy Birthday to Jess and Shan (:

Today
--------
Rotting at my aunt house? idk lehs.


God, rescue me.


whywhywhywhy?
why everything i thinks,the result is completely different?
can you tell me everything is fake?
please. please.
i rather i doesn't know anything at all.
went into bathroom, seriously unable to control the tears.
another breakdown.
is God fooling me or motivating me to be stronger?


我恨我爱你

面带微笑离开你怀

我听从由命

最后一张王牌在手里

二选一的机率

不能放纵爱你

就放过自己

爱情已经过了甜蜜期

多说也是无益

爱不爱我己经没关系

一点小伤而已

你可以很放心

我不会为了留你

假装可怜兮兮

都怪我 太不争气

我恨我爱你

Oh~ 我爱你

只是因为你是你

Oh~ 我恨你

你有我看也看不清的小聪明

你有我说也说不完的坏脾气

你有我数也数不尽你的…

.新恋情

爱情已经过了甜蜜期

多说也是无益

爱不爱我已经没关系

一点小伤而已

你可以很放心

我不会为了留你

假装可怜兮兮

都怪我 太不争气

我恨我爱你

Oh~ 我爱你

只是因为你是你

Oh~ 我恨你

你有我看也不清的小聪明

你有我说也说不完的坏脾气

你有我数也数不尽你的…

.新恋情

没关系…

我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆

我可以一个人安静的忘记你

我恨你最后那一句

我爱你

nice song (:
enjoy !


eoy hcl - chimm!

Hoooray!
I've completed two papers already(:
Today's higher chinese was a tough paper.
really tough paper i tell you. hmmm.
is like every sentence i got words chimmm till i don't get what it means,
have to guess and guess the meaning.
even liuyu and syvia ( pro in chinese one ) say damn diffcult.
and and, guess what?
peirce take the exactly same paper as us,
same ques,everything same.
so cao lao shi and peirce teachers come up the papers together.
got the information from shixian, she say is cluster (combine papers)
hahahahaas!
had extra maths lesson,
then go prime>guide house>library with ling.
then > home .
revised chem for acids and bases test tmr(:
sleep le zzzzzzzz !
byeee.


却在你未来缺席 .

缺席 - 黄靖伦
 
 爱 只剩下躯壳
为什么还不放手却拉扯
是我 不甘心还是不舍
为何我还在固执的拔河

其实我 真的很难过
只是难过都沦为沉默
可能我 真的不懂得 让你更快乐

我想和你在一起 却在你未来缺席
给你的爱 那些美丽
已长成藤蔓缠着我的生命
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本 未完待续
预留伏笔 把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果 就算瞬间老去毫不犹豫

爱 是不是都一样
无论多漫长 终究曲终人散
可是 我不想因为不敢 却步沮丧
然后半途收场

其实我 真的很难过
只是难过都沦为沉默
可能我 真的不懂得 让你更快乐



我想和你在一起 却在你未来缺席
给你的爱 那些美丽
已长成藤蔓缠着我的生命
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本 未完待续
预留伏笔 把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果 拥抱你不犹豫

能不能将你的样子忘掉
舍不舍得爱 让我控制不了
只想要 把你拥抱
其实爱上一个人没有解药
我的静脉流着爱陪你到老
原来我 还会微笑

我真的想和你在一起 却在你未来缺席
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本 未完待续
预留伏笔 把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果 就算瞬间老去毫不犹豫


Today.
had English papers.
extra poa lesson and then homed.
sleep as i'm super tired.
i don't know what to prepare for tmr's chinese essay!
intend to rmb the formatsof informa&formal letter writing only.
hais,language papers know then know.
don't know is you suay de mah. 
correct?
off to sleep zzzzz!
i still can't stop thinking about the past.
i'm still procrastinating about the things i shouldn't.
now is certainly not the right time.
buck up my studies! jyjyjy.



LET ME BELIEVE ONE MORE TIME :D


Blogger's standard falls nowadays.
even uploading photos took so long man.
so long till i gave up.
actually want to upload my 15th birthday's photos.
oh yesh, i admit i don't have enough patience to wait for this kinda thing.
okays, fast blogging as i am going to study later.




Struggled.
Speechless.
procrastinating.
missinglove. 
confused.
memories.
infatuation?


Okay, recently many complex things happened.
Hmmmm. sometimes i do think what the feeling'll be if i happens to see him again.
What will happen? what will he react? will i just smiled and walked away if this situation occurs?
Will i stutter some words to talk and attract his reactions?
I thought everything isn't that worse. But what i really thinks was really wrong.
Those memories painted in my mind. Its like a eraser suddenly lost its function.
Of course,  w couldn't take over his position in my <3.


Esp missed& loved the word silly.

missed& loved the way he rushed me kup the phone and sleep.

missed& loved those long nightalks over e phone.

missed& loved the way he want me to eat my medicine.

missed&loved the way he don't want me to skip my meals. 


missed& loved the way he sent me off at the bustop. 

missed&loved the way he made me laughs nonstop, cheeer me up.

missed&loved the way he gave me throat lozenges.


It's like a eraser losing its function.

Imissyoooou.

<333.

Believe no one but yourself.

 S-T-R-E-S-S out :/
everytime problems come , it will be like a flow , one by one ..
so yeah , finally i know the truth . so yeah , a lesson learnt .
i finally learn three words : BELIEVE IN YOURSELF .

15th birthday

Offically Fifteen (:
Thanks those who wished me Happy Birthday.
Thanks guides for singing birthday song for me.
Thanks for the monkey bday present as well.
Thanks for bday cards ( Jiaqi & meiyi each )

But unexpectly, i finally know the truth which isn't quite a happy stuff.
what a super mighty great fall this time round.

Brunt


STRESS , THAT FEELING IS SO WEIGHTY .

EMOTIONAL , ANXIETY , TIGHTNESS , DREAD

EXAMS FASTER END !





run by Laurennicole81.

run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away
& i don't ever want to turn back.
eat you apart
outsides hurting
insides falling apart.

thats really whatt i thinking now.
nothing going to bothers me now.
heck it.

Yonglin 10th bday(:

should do some fast blogging now as i gonna have my dinner soon :x !
oh yeah, today's my lil bro 10th bday (:
Happy Birthday to this Xiao Shuai Ge :D 
wowww, this month so many birthdays eh . haha .

Byeee , peoples !

lucas 1st year bday

Okays fast blogging now(:
things turn out so suckzxxy.
i know myself well enough i tend to bottle everything out,
and then when i can't tahan already, it will be like a volcano BOMMMB OUT!

Anyway, earthlings, today's my younger cousin, Lucas Lim's 1st year Bday:D
Happy Birthday Mr Naughty (:


因为真正爱过 , 才 痛 .


Today, stayed at home to study. Didn't go school again as my eyes still v pain and red.
The tears keep coming out. Om, use tons of tissue, i eventually use finish the whole box of tissue :x !
Gotta study vhard for the coming eoyes le as i'm lagging behind.
Jiayous peoples for coming eoyes :D
I tell myself, i wasted more than half of the year slacking, rotting,
let's just chiong whatever i can to promote to 4E this time.
Yes, i finally wake up. I really hope is not too late.
I used to say i want go 4a nxt yr, but now, nooo way.
I need to go 4e with KJD :D
Let's just mug very hard this 3 weeks, then i can enjoy.
Targeting at least a passing grade for maths.
I have done so many things that disappointed the loved ones around me.
I knew i dishearten them.
I'm gonna use this last chance to prove something that i can study when i want.
So let' c'man !
Studying (:

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Eye infection ):
I cried till eye infection , wtheck !
Mc two days. sianzzxx . going back school tmr .
I just need to cheerup now .
Tears ,breakdowns seems nothing to me already .
Thanks ah , you made me learn how to be stronger , at the same time weak-ing me .


Hohohoho !
Holidays gonna end le .
At least after holidays i got something to keep me busy from wild thoughts ?
Hahaa . I'm just totally shag . I wondered how was you now .
Going to have my dinner le (:


blogger is such lousy nowadays .
suddenly feels like switching to onsugar ,
cos blogger got probs uploading pics . & one other reason - memories .
considering ba .


After viewing the brave girl's blog , really admired the bravness she had .
Let's take a break for a longer journey (:


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